MY BARN HAVING BURNED TO THE GROUND I CAN NOW SEE THE MOON
My surgery is at 7:30 tomorrow morning. I have to be there at 6. When we went to the mastectomy pre-op appointment, Jim gave Dr. Miller a Starbucks card and said she could only use it on the day of my surgery. The other night (I was an idiot and didn't take a sleeping pill) I was up at 2am pondering what the plastic surgeon will do for lunch during the 8 hour surgery. Maybe I should bring him a Power Bar.
In other food news, Liam is officially a chunk. He had his 15 month appointment today (yeah, a well visit for a change!) and measured a whopping 26 pounds-- 8 more than when I got my first surgery... up from 10th percentile to 80th. This puts him above the 20 pound lifting threshold, but I, for one, am willing to deal. Because the fact that he's on viagra and is nicknamed "wham" is not enough to torment him with when he's a teenager, we've been coming up with new names for him. T calls him "Ham hocks" because of his sumo legs. My mom, in another classic malapropism, calls him "Hammer Hogs." He, of course, is unphased by distractions that keep him away from his next meal.
Jim asked me the other day if I thought it was strange to have so many people know so much about me. Strange, maybe. The best thing about this whole ridiculous experience, absolutely. You like to hope that when it comes down to it, you would be brave and strong-- but you can never really be sure if you've lived a charmed life and never really been tested. But it's funny, it's not really about being brave or strong at all. It's about being honest... because being honest has helped to create the village. I am consistently awed and humbled by the response and support I've received throughout. You have gifted me with the confidence to believe that all will be well. Carol gave me a card yesterday that says it better than I can:
my barn having burned to the ground
i can now see the moon...
(fullandbright)
Happy thought alert: pretty much any time you feel the urge all day tomorrow.
posted by Carolyn @ Thursday, July 27, 2006
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10 Comments:
When I was still in college (finance, '92), we looked at charts that showed the market's response to upcoming stock splits, favorable dividend announcements, etc. The charts showed that insider trading is alive and well. If a 2-for-1 split was announced on July 1st, there would be a gradual increase in the stock price for the 15 or so days leading up to July 1st, and no real change when the announcement was made.
As I've watched the comments on this blog over the past six months, I have seen the same thing--you make a "coordinated happy thoughts alert" on the day before chemo or surgery, but there are already 35 comments the day before...
So I can only conclude (much like finance class) that the insiders are already doing their thing, and that you're in good hands.
As to "you can't be sure until you've been tested", truer words have not been spoken. And you've passed with flying colors. "It's only life, after all."
Much love from up here, and I know all will be well tomorrow and thereafter. Think of all of us as they give you the good drugs, and we'll be with you no matter what.
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX^8 (turn the 8 on its side).
love,
bmc :)
I've been disconnected for some time now. Much has passed for you. I just began to read your blogs this evening and was moved (to say the least!) I met you in Italy-where else, THE wedding. You're such a beautiful person. The attitude/perspective you've taken can not be mistaken for anything less than inspirational. You're handling yourself with grace possessed by few. Through your challenge everyone around you will be blessed. All those close to you have been, and will be forced to take a closer look at their lives...to realign priorities.
i can picture you underneath that bell in Italy. You have an infectious smile. You were great then and, of course, you're still great now. Such a great smile. What warmth! I wish I was there to see your smile now.
This is random, but, I think your lemonade could sell...you know, lemonade out of lemons(I almost wrote lemons out of lemonade...keep that btwn us) So, Cari's lemonade.
Well chick, you got this. I guess its time to start working on the marketing for your lemonade. I'll start scouting corners in Austin for lemonade stands. And I'll be in Atlanta soon, so I can work that scene too.
You just keep doing what you're doing...the rest of us will try to follow your lead.
Cari,
Your strength is amazing. Reading your blog is such a humbling experience. I will be thinking of you today and many days to come.
Marci Parsons-Grant
Carolyn -
Happy thoughts from Pasadena! We will raise our glasses tonight and toast to you and your successful surgery today. I hope you gave the doctor my number - I'm still willing to jump on a plane and donate some extra belly fat in case you need it.
Take care,
RBW Fan Club President - Pasadena
Cari,
You have been in our thoughts all morning. Alison and I (and little Jake) will be anxiously awaiting the encouraging news and seeing your infectiously beautiful smile.
On a lighter note, how did your sister manage to finish that Avon Walk? I mean, Lisa eats like a spoonful of cereal in the morning. You'd think that she'd pass out or something.
But you Nobel's are all excercise nuts! God Bless your entire family!
We love you!
xoxox
Alison & Michael Wissot
Carolyn, thinking of you today and know you are getting the new you, can't wait to hear from you and how you are doing dear. Glad Liam is doing well. Enjoy todays outcome Carolyn. Bless you and yours...AJ
Sending so much positive energy your way the last 24 hours that I think I need to take an energy-replenishing nap just to make it to bedtime! Amy:-) (TCH)
If anybody has an update, I would really appreciate it!!
Thought of you all day today - I'm sure the collective energy is enough for quite the electrical storm :)
RBW Fan Club - San Antonio Chapter
Here are some links that I believe will be interested
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